Suitcase Notes: Graham Greene

‘A Little Place Off the Edgware Road” — (Graham Greene, 1939)


First sentence: “Craven came up past the Achilles statue in the thin summer rain.”

“He carried his body about with him like something he hated.”

“He remembered a dream from which three times he had woken trembling: he had been alone in the huge dark cavernous burying ground of all the world. Every grave was connected to another under the ground: the globe was honeycombed for the sake of the dead, and on each occasion of dreaming he had discovered anew the horrifying fact that the body doesn’t decay.”

“He hated them, and hated his hatred because he knew what it was, envy.”

“(a hint of religious belief was lodged in his breast like a worm in a nut)”

“The Spring Song tinkled ineptly on, and the screen flickered like indigestion.”

“…and lay still and buxom among her weeping slaves.”

“They seemed to have got into an absurd and meaningless wrangle in the dark.”

“He chose instead a telephone-box and dialed with a sense odd for him of sanity and decision 999.”

Last lines:

“He began to scream, ‘I won’t go mad. I won’t go mad. I’m sane. I won’t go mad.’ Presently a little crowd began to collect, and soon a policeman came.”

10.20.18 – A Death in the Family

From A Death in the Family by James Agee (1957):

“He heard the summer night.

All the air vibrated like a fading bell with the latest exhausted screaming of locusts. Couplings clashed and conjoined; a switch engine breathed heavily. An auto engine bore behind the edge of audibility the furious expletives of its incompetence. Hooves broached, along the hollow street, the lackadaisical rhythms of the weariest of clog dancers, and endless in circles, narrow iron tires grinced continuously after. Along the sidewalks, with incisive heels and leathery shuffle, young men and women advanced, retreated.

A rocking chair betrayed reiterate strain, as of a defective lung; like a single note from a stupendous jew’s-harp, the chain of a porch swing twanged.

Somewhere very near, intimate to some damp inch of the grass between these homes, a cricket peeped, and was answered as if by his echo.

Humbled beneath the triumphant cries of children, which tore the whole darkness like streams of fire, the voices of men and women on their porches rubbed cheerfully against each other, and in the room next his own, like the laboring upward of laden windlasses and the mildest pouring out of fresh water, he heard the voices of men and women who were familiar to him. They groaned, rewarded; lifted, and spilled out: and watching the windows, listening at the heart of the proud bell of darkness, he lay in perfect peace.

Gentle, gentle dark.”

Lenin’s Tomb

From Lenin’s Tomb: The Last Days of the Soviet Empire by David Remnick (1994).


“At his trial in Leningrad, [Joseph] Brodsky encountered the soul of the regime, its peculiar language.

JUDGE: What is your profession?

BRODSKY: Translator and poet.

JUDGE: Who recognized you as a poet? Who has enrolled you in the ranks of poets?

BRODSKY: No one. Who enrolled me in the ranks of human beings?

JUDGE: Did you study for it?


JUDGE: To be a poet. Didn’t you try to take courses in school where one prepares for life, where one learns?

BRODSKY: I didn’t believe it was a matter of education.

JUDGE: How is that?

BRODSKY: I thought that it came from God.”

10.8.18 – Orisons

It is true I’ve been away from myself for several years, but I won’t call them lost years because to call anything lost is to suffer from lack of imagination. I do imagine I’ve been impossible to live with, at any rate.

To fix myself up I’ve gathered a great big stack of books, some I’ve been meaning to read since forever ago and some just lucky-looking, and two or three good blank stacks of paper, and two pens, and a bottle of water that never runs out.

Always you begin with this intention to overcome the ugliest of who you’ve been. Or haven’t been. You start by going swimming in it, drink deep from the well of memory. Learn again how to do what you were born with, what you’ve forgotten. Try to empty out the heart, pour the bile dry, wipe the last decade of sleep from your eyes, read yourself back alive.

The books in the order they winked at me while wandering the more or less empty aisles of the Austin Public Library are:


1. Saul Bellow — “Humboldt’s Gift”
2. Everyman’s Pocket Classics – “London Stories”
3. Pritchett – “The Oxford Book of Short Stories”
4. Toni Morrison – “The Origin of Others”
5. Jose Saramago – “Manual of Painting and Calligraphy”
6. Philip Roth – “I Married a Communist”
7. Julio Cortazar – “Hopscotch” – “Blow-Up” – “We Love Glenda So Much”


A man in the back of the library was snoozing in a chair, baseball cap falling down over his face. The cap failed to hide the dreams playing across his face and a librarian in lilac smocks scolded him twice, once in English, once in Spanish. “You can’t sleep here,” she said. “I’m not sleeping,” said the man, and sat up straight, but the cap fell back down as soon as she had gone and within two minutes he was lost in dreams again, or in a dreamless state.



The Man From San Marcos (more or less a true story from an Uber driver)

The man from San Marcos had dreamed of a book. The book was dredged up from the bottom of a lake, untouched, undamaged by the water, in a boat made of bone. Since it had been found, the town had fallen under a curse. The people carried torches and burned each other alive. The man from San Marcos tore a page from the book, used it as a rolling paper, lit a joint and sailed off in the bone boat toward the setting sun. Which, the man from San Marcos said, is precisely what the book told him to do. Curiously, the book was in a language nobody could read. The man said the book spoke to him in audible tones, somewhere between the sound of rustling trees and the voice of his mother, Rest In Peace.

Headlines, 8.2.18

Seen today:

  1. Nicole Kidman Saves Tarantula
  2. Jailed Double Murderer Runs for U.S. Senate
  3. Fields Medal Stolen from Kurdish Mathematician in Rio –                                          “The International Congress of Mathematicians is profoundly sorry about the disappearance of the briefcase belonging to mathematician Caucher Birkar, which contained his Fields Medal from the ceremony this morning,” organizers said in a note.
  4. Snake Falls Out of Banana Tree, Lands On Man
  5. Artist Constructing 16-Foot Sandcastle in Manhattan